One Month With Walton Is a Beautiful Blurr

What day is it? What time is it? What month is it? When I write Walton’s birthday and see the year 2017, I think to myself, how can that be right? We had a baby this year? Pregnancy seems all consuming but then the actual baby comes and the baby bump is a distant memory that is replaced by a grunting, wiggly, tiny body that can’t do anything himself. I mean can’t even hold up his own head out the gate? No wonder new parents get zero sleep … we’re literally holding up this little head so it keeps breathing until it can hold up itself.

But somehow we manage and get through it because we would spend those countless hours just looking at our baby’s little face regardless if he is awake or not. And those little snuggles and sounds that come from that sweet innocent little face are really so wonderful that it is hard to believe that it really makes it all worth while.

What We Know About Baby Walton

  • He hiccups A LOT. Way more than either of the girls that I can remember. They seem violent but seem to bother us more than him.
  • He loves to look at his sisters. They are really good about getting right in his face at eye level so he doesn’t really have a choice to be interested in their crazy faces and sounds.
  • Walton grunts all the time especially when he is working something out in his diaper. This may be all babies but he seems especially grunty.
  • He loves baths. I remember this being a screaming episode with at least Vivi for the first few, but this guy is cool as a cucumber in the tub and would stay in there as long as we let him.
  • He smells like a mix of laundry and warm milk. mmmm baby smell
  • He sleeps right now in 3 hours increments no more … but sometimes less.

I started this blog a little bit after Vivi was born and so she doesn’t have a one month update post. But I wanted to try and get some pics of the kids all at one month to remember what their little bodies looked like compared to Walton’s now.

WALTON | ONE MONTH
Smaller than Viv but probably a little bigger than Ellen. I won’t have an updated weight until his 6 week appointment.

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VIVIENNE | ONE MONTH
12 pounds 11 ounces

ELLEN | ONE MONTH
10 pounds 4 ounces

THE GIRLS ARE ALRIGHT
While its been a little chaotic with the girls starting school it has really been the best thing for them, to have another focus than being cooped up inside with the baby. They both love to hold the baby and feed the baby bottles. It is almost like a competition of who gets to love on him the most. Ellen’s attention to most things these days is short lived. She likes to be with the baby but is quick to get up to the next thing. Vivi being a little older is more invested in caring for her brother. She gets sensitive when we have to push her away. She tries to insert herself anywhere to be close to the baby.

They are both very interested in his poop and diaper changes and again treats a diaper change as a competition of who gets to be on the stool right next to me to hand me a wipe and diaper.

GOT MILK?
Oh my milk you ask? I know readers are just dying to know how the milk production is going on my end. I only add this not to add TMI but to remind myself (and the girls one day …) how much one person gives (ME) to feed one other very tiny little person. Right now I am 80% pumping. I will nurse sometimes if I feel like it, if we have time, if we’re comfy on the couch … otherwise I am pumping. I’m not sure what my supply would be like if I hadn’t been on the nursing track to start, but now I pump about 7-10 ounces each pump and have to pump about every 3-4 hours. So that means that yes I make enough milk and then some since Walton is only taking about 3-4 ounces every 3-4 hours and yes I still have a milk dud. Each pump takes me about 10-15 minutes so I am literally hooked up to a machine for no less than an hour in a full day.

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Ready-ish for a Naybie BOY

At this moment we have said that this will probably most likely surly be the last baby that I am going to carry. I am not one that loves or really hates pregnancy; it is a long 9 month road. Don’t get me wrong it is so special and a truly amazing thing that anyone’s body can transform and grow a little human, but besides just the gestation period there is the recovery after, the breastfeeding battle (or if nothing else it is a pain and time suck, literally) oh and the next 18 years of trying to nurture and raise an upstanding or at least contributing member of society.

I did feel the need to get some last family pics of just the 4 of us. We really have not had professional photos taken since Ellen was born … I just tried to find them on the blog and looks like they never got posted. I guess that just goes to show that with a 2 month old and 17 month old there was literally no time for this blog. I am wondering if it will have to take a back seat again for this Naybie. I also wanted to remember the baby bump, since (again) this will be my last one (I promise I’m not just saying that to convince myself). Also since I have ZERO monthly chalkboards for this guy. I didn’t loose the board or anything … it is prominently hanging in our kitchen. I just never got the energy for it this time around :( poor baby. Thank you to Brook Lewis Photography for being so patient on a hot morning with a crabby 3 year old and to Widmer Floral for the special babies breath crowns for the girls. I don’t know what it is about professional photos, but they just look so much better than anything I take on my camera or iphone. The only ones of Ellen in particular smiling are because Chester is in the background being a monkey … which is why he isn’t in most of them.

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THE HOUSE
Our house is somewhat ready-ish for this guy. While there really is no nursery, there is a guest room with a crib set up for him! And we have a little nook in this room that started as the master bedroom and is still that, but also a catch all room for the girl’s art table, my desk and now where most of the baby’s stuff resides. I have been trying wash all of the things we have had in storage for 3+ years and am reminded of just how much stuff these little babies require. And also how much new stuff they have come out with in the short amount of time we haven’t had a baby. A rock-n-play? A sit-me-up? Seem to be the latest must haves in baby land. Also thanks to some wonderful friends and family of ours I think we are set in the clothes department and even diapers/wipes/baby wash for now.

THE GIRLS
It has probably seemed like we have said that the baby is almost here forever to those little girls whose perception of time is so different from ours. So while we are just 13 days away at this point I don’t know if they believe me in knowing just how close we really are. They love giving kisses to my belly and the baby on a daily basis. And they love babies they see in the gym daycare or even walking around the store. Hopefully with school starting right when the baby comes will only add to their excitement and they won’t feel like they are cooped up all day long with him.

THE HUSBAND 
I have also forgotten how much Chester really loves babies. He just loves to mess with anything really and babies are no exception. In fact it is probably worse with babies since they are experiencing everything for the first time and Chester loves to see their reactions and expressions from blowing in their face and their ears. Tickling all the little crevices and rolls. It is so fun watching him with babies.

THE MOMMA
Everyone looks at how huge I am and says “you must be ready” and trust me I am ready to sleep on my back, roll on my stomach and even run and jump. BUT I am also dreading the recovery, sleepless nights, anxiety of newborn cries. Also I know that he is so safe in there. Maybe because we are saying this is the last one that I will carry, that I feel sad knowing that once he leaves that I’ll be lonely. I don’t remember feeling that sadness before with the girls. Also this guy is so animated in there already that I’ll miss the constant buddy reminding me that he is in there. And I know there will be moments where I wish I could just put him back in there … kangaroos have it figured out I think. And with my school semester wrapping up I am breathing a sigh of relief that I’ll be able to take a short break and then back to the books in October.

THE BOULLIE
Boullie is slipping down yet another rung on the totem poll in the Nay house. His anxiety seems less severe since we have moved to Highland, he displays the symptoms of shaking, hiding and panting on a much more frequent basis. I really don’t know if this baby will have a large effect on him other than another thing that will drop things for him to eat on the floor … so how can that be bad for Bou?

So I guess we are ready as we will ever be for this baby boy to shake up our lives. We are so excited to meet him!

 

 

Pre-K. Another Day or A New Life?

Remember when I was super excited for PreK in St. Louis? I mean full time, meaningful care for FREE! A dream for anyone who has ever paid for a full day of childcare. However we always knew that we may not be living in St. Louis and obviously we do not. While there are so many upsides to living small(er) town life in Highland, early childhood development programs is not one of them. We are enrolled at Peppermint Pre School 2 days a week for 2.5 hours per day.

I have started and restarted this entry over and over again, never being able to complete it. The first attempt was basically me whining that its not the free, full day in STL that we were planning on and then I started getting sentimental and started a list of what I hoped that Vivi got out of her 5 hours of school per week.

But here we are and she is ONE hour into Pre-K. She had an orientation today that I thought we stayed in the classroom for but was informed that we were to leave and come back. All of a sudden I was a little emotional, maybe because I was not planning on leaving her yet. So I scooped up Ellen and we headed out just me and her. In that moment I realized two things 1) that I was happy that we were not in full time school and 2) that I have never really spent alone time with just Ellen.

I’m not worried at all that Vivienne will love her school. I do worry that Ellen will feel left out and it is something that I think I will worry about forever since they are so close in age. To the point where I don’t want to start Vivi in activities until Ellen can also participate. Some of that is also my desire to keep our schedule as free as possible from afternoon commitments.

Here we go! Sending our first baby out into the world/church for 2.5 hours 2 days a week (baby steps). I’m grabbing those 5 hours a week for some one-on-one Ellen time and cherishing those MWF with both of them even more while they last … then tagging out on the weekend cuz momma’s tired.

I had to use dish soap to get the marker and crayon off the ole chalkboard that was at the bottom of the kids toy bin.. Ellen with her little backpack so sweet.

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Can She Please Stay a Baby Forever? | Ellen 11 Months

As I was scrolling through this blog I noticed 1) how little I really post 2) how I really dropped the ball for Ellen’s monthly chalkboards 3) how much I love my babies 4) how I need to figure out how to add a favicon to the WordPress blog — it really bugs me. Even though it seems like I have been at the mothering stuff forever, it really has only been a little over 2 years. I have underwear older than that and probably some very weird canned vegetables like carrots.

So here we are with an eleven month old Ellen well 11.5 month old Ellen. Is that crazy?! She was just born. I mean Vivi was just born.

Things you should know about Ellen: 

  1. She has no teeth, ZERO — this is the main reason she looks younger than she is. Which is fine with me, my wittle baby.
  2. She is really good a imitating facial expressions and sounds.
  3. She crawls like a boss. Bear crawl, fast army crawl — whatever gets her there.
  4. She is a thumb sucker.
  5. One of her favorite things is getting her gums brushed with a toothbrush.

Favorite Books: With a big sister, Ellen doesn’t get to pick books. But she loves the Highlights for babies laminated books. These were Vivi’s (of course), but she has since moved up to the magazines. Which she loves. I grew up with Highlights and there is a reason they are still around – better than I expected when mom signed Vivi up for them. #thanksmom!

Favorite Foods: Ellen does pretty well considers she’s gumming it all still. She loves proteins and carbs – eggs, meat, noodles. The only fruits she really likes are bananas and strawberries.

Dislikes: Being put down and left. Diaper changes (I mean who likes these?)

I lost the dang chalkboard, which is why we improvised:

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Here’s Vivi at 11 months:
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Annndd I actually got some video of 3 of the best things about Ellen. Her bear crawl, her dancing head bob that she does ALL the time. And she still lays her head on my chest while she is sucking her thumb, which is also one of the reasons why it feels like she will be my baby forever. I don’t want those teeth to come!


No Free Time for Anything … Including Blogging

So I recently looked at a poll on maybe on Today.com that said that the hardest part of being a parent these days is finding that you have no free time or time to yourself or time to do really anything except for keeping kids alive and fed (which reminds me that I have to make Vivi’s lunch for tomorrow about a half hour long undertaking).

So this poor blog is another one of those projects that is such a good idea in theory BUT falls in the never ending list of things that I start but never really follow through on and finish. I just hung pics in the house from our July family photo shoot and hung letters over the girls cribs that I have been telling myself to do before Ellen was born. But I do feel pretty good every time I see those hanging letters (even if the V is a little crooked and I may have had a few stressful words with Chester while hanging them. Hanging pictures and curtains is really a test of a relationship). Oh the list of other things that I have slightly failed at include:

  • Photo album for Ellen (easier said that done to print pictures and put them in a book)
  • Emails to the girls (Google’s ad made it look so simple)
    • Email them! dear-dot-ellen-dot-olivia@gmail.com | dear-dot-vivienne-dot-rose@gmail.com
  • Journaling (the last entry I have is from Feb. 2013)
  • Mommy keep sake books (they make it seem so easy to just fill in things each month with pictures — nope)
  • Bow making (not totally my fault since Vivi will NOT keep anything in her hair)

Everyone tells you that it goes by so quickly and to enjoy the baby days. So I have this fear that I will blink and they will be in college and all I will have are the photos and video and blog and journals that will remind me that I had these baby girls. And because I am prone to not remember anything already …. I have this picture in my head that I will be going through all of my files and pics organizing and just marvel at it all and wish that I had more or that I could relive just one day of the baby madness. I do think man it would be so much easier if there was just no platform for blogs (which would actually put me out of a job) … or phones were just that and not also your camera and video. Sometimes I find myself missing something because I am getting my phone to capture this once in a lifetime moment. I have realized this, and found myself more recently stopping myself from grabbing the phone and just playing along and thinking to myself “OK freeze this second in your head so you will always remember that smile and giggle and the way her rolls bounce when she runs away from you.” I don’t know how some mommy bloggers do it. I think they must just have a live feed on their kid at all times and just review the footage and click to get pics … does it make me crazy that I have thought of adding a live feed in my house, again so that I don’t miss anything, but seems a little to prison/big brother ish and wrong or something. We don’t even have a baby monitor of any kind.

Any way for the sake of this NOT being just another draft that I keep in my blog (I have about 12 that I will probably just post at some time unfinished) … Here are just some recent pics of the girls and my family. No real update, no fancy captions. And just the hope that I will make myself sit down more often and keep it up so that its not just another dusty blog in the sea of once loved blogs.

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We both went on vacations to different lakes. I had Ellen, Chester had Vivi.

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Blasts from the past.

 

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First toe dipping in the river from Nana.

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Vivi at home.

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Ellen at home growing.

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My crazy, awesome family – couch time.

 

Ellen ONE Month Update

Whew! So Ellen is ONE month old, has had her check up at the doctor and is looking big and beautiful these days. Weighing in at 10 lbs 4 oz she has gained 3 pounds this month and in the 95 percentile of babies. At one month, Viviennne was 12 lbs 11 oz and pretty much off the charts. Smaller is OKAY with me!

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WHAT DO WE KNOW ABOUT ELLEN?

  • Chain Sneezes | She cannot give just one or two but more like 5 or 6 every time she sneezes
  • Strong Neck | Arches her head and neck back to the point where it looks unnatural (first pic)
  • Bright Eyes | Ellen has the biggest, inquisitive eyes (second pic)
  • Mad Sleeper | Ellen sleeps with a mad face. Its like she doesn’t want to be asleep but the alternative is so much worse so she makes herself sleep and blames us for it (third pic)

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HOW IS VIVIENNE?

This is probably the question we most often get. And right now Vivienne is great. We are all in a luxury phase while Ellen sleeps like a baby 80% of the day really. Once she starts to roll, grab and have her own needs and wants besides eating, sleeping and pooping I think we will all be in for a wake up call. But Vivi wants to kiss Ellen ALL THE TIME! Probably about 5-10 kisses in a hour, and that is when we let her. Boullie used to get all the kisses, but these days Vivi only has eyes for Ellen. She has basically found that kissing is one of the only OKAY methods of interaction with Ellen. We put a limit to the touching, grabbing and licking of the baby; you know because we are really good parents.

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6 WEEKS APPROACHING

Which means the end of maternity leave and real life begins. Another maternity leave coming to a close and like the last one I can say that I was really NOT productive at all. Closets did not get cleaned, freezer meals did not get made (or any meal for that matter) and really I don’t care that much. At the beginning of a 6 week “break” we have such high aspirations but this we are thinking in terms of pre-baby. Once those babies come all chores/duties are off besides the “dooty” that comes out of Ellen.

I am looking forward to spending more time with these babies of mine. After much number crunching, weighing the pros and cons and then just getting down to the bottom line that I want more time at home. I am working with Captiva to go to a flex schedule where I will be in the office 3 days a week and at home for 2, so almost part-time.

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Ellen: 10 pounds 4 ounces                                           Vivienne: 12 pounds 11 ounces
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Ellen’s One Week Update

Ellen Olivia Nay was born on June 5, 2014 at 11:30 am.

Weight: 8 lbs 9 oz
Length: 21.5 in

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After seeing that Ellen could be a 10 pound baby from our last ultrasound, we decided to go ahead with the scheduled C-Section we had planned if she didn’t decide to come before then. After a day of walking, raspberry tea drinking, a primrose oil pill (we are no stranger to trying to get induce labor naturally) — and only small Braxton Hicks like contractions, we dropped off Boullie with his bestie Bayia, dropped of Vivi with the Grandparents, and checked in to the hospital at 9 am.

Though Vivi did not do great in the hospital setting meeting Ellen, she wasn’t awful and has become really sweet with Ellen at home.

All you want is to see what you baby will look like, but the fact is that even when they come out, you still have no idea. Vivienne surprises me today with her curly hair and long eyelashes. So even though they my look similar as newborns — who knows?! They each have their own unique qualities and we are so lucky to get to watch their little personalities grow into the little people we will help them become.

Here are a few comparison photos I have been wanting to see side-by-side myself.

ELLEN pics on the LEFT | VIVIENNE pics on the RIGHT

  
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Daddy Pics
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ONE WEEK NEW! | ELLEN
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ONE WEEK NEW! | VIVIENNE
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ONE WEEK!

Ellen is almost back to her birth weight at one week which means that mama has been doing my job waking her up to eat every few hours. I really do this more for myself than Ellen – as I am determined to stay on top of breast feeding to avoid any pains early on that I can — so far no cabbage needed (just a high power hospital pump).

Like all newborns Ellen sleeps A LOT which is a biological necessity for ANY parent to enjoy this period of “rest.” I don’t remember Vivi sleeping quite this much, but I’ll take it! Ellen does seem to be getting her days and nights straight. She is awake for a bit in the morning and then a bit during dinner then for the past 2 nights has slept for 3 hours at a time.

What a wonderful addition to our family Ellen is!